I am dying of tears. This sickness is taking over me, i feel alone, suffering all over. My body aches, and my mind is damaged. This repeating cycle is ruining me. Why can’t you see this? Your decisions affect me.. but you don’t care. You don’t seem to care, what so ever. It is all about your moment of needs, where am I in this picture? Do you hear my cries, my whimpering? I am yearning for salvation. I need to get away, i am not strong enough to live here anymore. I need to do me, even if it will hurt you.. I can see your better of without me. Theres nothing more that you can teach me, nothing more that will matter. I don’t ever want to become you, or them. Never mean it in a harmful way, it is just the truth. I need to leave this sicking cycle before it is to late , to late that i will never be able to escape form it. I have the power to change things, so i have to leave you, i will leave you.. This place, this place i don’t belong here. My time is up. This sadness won’t follow me i hope. I need to find God in my own terms, i need to be with him. I need to do me. Maybe i will regret it, but i’ll never know unless i do something about it. I see that your giving me false hope, my heart can’t take it anymore. So it’s my time, my turn to start taking my own decisions about my LIFE. I know i am young, and naive.. But i am also strong, and form the hands of God. I’ll do fine. And the one day i’ll be able to forgive you, move on, talk to you, and tell you everything. But i can’t do that if i stay. I need to be me. I need to do me.
